Any other 30 Rock fans out there? I wouldn’t watch it for the longest time because I had no idea it was an address, I thought it was a show that had something to do with being in your thirties and I was not ready to accept my impending doom. Anyway, I gave in about two years ago and I’m so glad I did, hilarious. I often have Liz moments. In this weeks episode she is trying to solve everyone else’s problems and keeps obsessing about fitting into a bridesmaids dress until at one point she says “And then I’m going to the gym!” and everyone laughs out loud. I have that fight with myself every day and for a long time now the gym has lost. The bed is just to comfortable in the morning, and then I have to make breakfast and lunch and get in a little quality time with the man and the kitties. By the time I get home the whole gym idea is out the window. I’m either pissy from work, tired from working too hard, or in a great mood and set to make dinner and have a great night.

I’ve decided, if the gym is going to start again it has to be in the morning. It’s going to be easier to start eating write and getting more done once I start exercising, I know this. I have had this battle so many times and every time I say not again. Maybe this really will be the last fight.

Still not officially hired which doesn’t help. It is really hard to feel worthy of anything right now.

Love always,
Lula Mae

Filed under: Bipolar, Job Loss, Turning 30, exercise, stress, weight